I’m losing hope in everything.
All my beliefs are being flushed away.
God?
Probably not real.
Love?
Defiantly not real.
Family?
Family is just a sad excuse for comfort. Because “everyone has family”
Wrong. You have people you are forced to live in the same house with that sometimes make small talk with you.
You think they care? You’re wrong.
Friendship?
Not real. People finding solace in people that are similar to themselves? Yeah no. Friendships are all shallow. Nothing real can come from them.
Life?
Life is pointless. You are put on earth to die.
And that’s what I plan on doing.
What am I doing?
I don’t want to go through my next inhale.
Its to the point where I can’t get in my car and drive somewhere without wanting to unbuckle and drive head first into the nearest tree.
Walking on Eggshells
This is us almost 5 months later.
What have we become? We both have created so many problems for one another, now I’m watching my every move. Being sure not to upset you because I’m afraid of what you will do.
Do you remember month -1? I was so scared to fall for you. I was terrified that after a short time you would have your fill of me. You’d be bored.
And you’d let me go..
You reassured me for weeks,
But now my biggest fears are coming true.
